Thanks for the recognition
I recently had my one to one meeting with my regional manager. We have to have these quarterly meetings for our employee records. They are a discussion on our performance against a large number of measures which we are targeted to achieve, fall below them and you face being monitored and disciplinary hearings! Our figures including billing figures, delivery of reports against service level agreements and audit scores. All of these figures feed into a ‘productivity score’ which marks your performance as a surveyor, and this is bench marked against every other surveyor in every other office in the UK.
In my one to one my director, with a grin on his face, turned his laptop around and showed me the spreadsheet. He pointed to the top line and there was my name. My performance figures placed me first throughout all the offices and all other surveyors in the UK. I was admittedly pleased, however, until this post the only other person that knows that fact is Esra.
Now it’s not that I am extremely modest, but, for me, those figures are a nice reminder that I do my job well, and that is all. Many people measure themselves against external factors and this is called object referral. That is to say, their sense of self is linked to their performance, their job title, their qualifications or their bank account. The problem with this is that object referral is transient. All it takes is a couple of new very difficult claims, jobs that sit with Planning Authorities or which cannot be moved forward for a variety of different reasons for my name to fall from number 1. If I have invested a small element of self worth in the fact that I am at the top of a list, then, when I inevitably fall off that position on the list, with it goes a piece of my identity. I will then be forever chasing some external affirmation that I am good at what I do, I am worthy, or whatever other sense of self I have placed upon that data.
The only way in which we can be truly happy in this life is by self referral. That is, working on our internal world, our internal dialogue and our spiritual self. If you are self assured then your foundations cannot be affected by external influence, the loss of your job, bankruptcy or a slide from fame to obscurity. By self referral you recognise that all that you are is within you, and your power therefore is also within you and not linked to some obscure external ideal. The opinions of others good or bad do not affect your inner peace. You are neither better nor less than any other person because you recognise the spirit in all humans, we are the same no matter what external manifestations you have which differ to mine. By working on my inner life I become the truest sense of who I am and that is all I can ask of myself.
I deliver my projects to the best of my ability, I deal with all my clients as people whether they have a £10m house or are in rented accommodation, if that approach to my job has placed me at the top of a list, then that is nice, however I believe it only a reflection of my approach and not my ability. By presenting the best version of myself out into the world. By treating others with respect no matter how they treat you. And by finding contentment within and not without, my life is simpler and less susceptible to external changes.
That is how I aim to walk the rest of my time in this world and whilst it is a long slow journey filled with many hiccups (road rage anyone), it is the choice I have made.